cleaning day

so i decided to make today cleaning day. I have been neglecting my house keeping duties in the past few days and the job became a little more than i could handle on my own, so i hired a cleaning lady. I found Debbie on craigslist and i chose her for the price. she charged me $20/hr with a 2 hour minimum which i thought was pretty resonable. she was awsome...she was like motor powered. she finished really fast, plus she cleaned both bathrooms and the kitchen, which are my least favorite things to do. I was really happy with her services. anyway, it motivated me to sort out other stuff that I've been just piling up and will give away lots of things i dont need. This makes me feel good. this post is really pointless but if you got this far thank you for sharing my joy.

mdl

bummed about the movie

ok, I went to the movies for the first time in months...we saw the pink panther (we had the kids with us). by we I mean Nao and I. so we got there early and bought the tickets. Went to the book store next door and the kids looked for books they wanted to buy. KC started acting all cocky saying that he was sure the brainquest for 7 to 8 yr olds was easy for him. I challenged him and he got a few questions wrong and became both depressed and obsessed with learning them, so he wanted to buy it. I reminded him that he had one more advanced at home that he hadn’t finished yet. KC then begins to browse for books and sees a black version of Goldie Locks and says in a really loud voice “mommy look goldie locks is black!” I lean closer to him and remind him we’re in harlem so he lowers his voice and says sorry. So after getting upset that the only book he wanted was in Spanish and it was too advanced for him, he ended up buying another chapter book that he will probably lose interest in in a couple of days. Anyway after the book shopping we go back to the movie theater to buy snacks that we really shouldn’t be eating and get good seats . we sit and start enjoying the movie until I realize that there’s a homeless guy sitting next to me and he has about 4 garbage bags and a truckload of Chinese food and various drinks. He’s also talking to an invisible friend sitting on his left. I make nao aware of it but we decide that he doesn’t look harmful so we don’t move. We continued watching the movie that wasn’t half bad. (especially the Hamburger part). After all this we go home to Nao’s and she forces me to watch a soap opera about a girl that supposedly died but really didn’t and another one is pregnant but it’s pretending to be holy and a guy had a sex op and is about to marry another guy. Anyway this was torture….then she tried to start watching the premios bla..blah…blah… and I threatened her with going home and she finally changed the channel. In all this her BF gets home and prepares some vodka concoction and give me some so I’m really happy. Then nao is checkin unheard voicemails from august and I’m thinking what’s the point? What can possibly be that important that waited 6 months and no one died or anything. But I can’t talk bc I just erased a couple of birthday messages last week (my b’day is in august)……but bum and all at the theater, today was pretty cool.

mdl

"Ding Dong! The Witch is Dead!"

Ding Dong! The Witch is dead! Which old Witch? The Wicked Witch! Ding Dong! The Wicked Witch is dead.
Wake up - sleepy head, rub your eyes, get out of bed.Wake up, the Wicked Witch is dead.She's gone where the goblins go,Below - below - below. Yo-ho, let's open up and sing and ring the bells out.Ding Dong the merry-oh, sing it high, sing it low.Let them know the Wicked Witch is dead!

YAY..... the witch is dead.....mimi and bunny I had a lot of fun at the WIZ Party......I'm really glad the witch is dead.

love u guys.....

MDL

PS: make sure u process my "olden" freakin "gayvon"

I'm sorry NAO

this is a public apology for not having pictures of you on my flickr. I love u (no not in that way). I really have no excuse aside from the selfish one i told you about. just for that i will take pictures of you and your kids for free....oh wait i was already gonna do that. anyway it's not because i dont love you and yes i'm still mad about not being in your livingroom. he he.

LOVE U GIRLY! :-)

still alive

ok i didn't actually die...I survived the crazy fevers and hacking cough....I'm not sure exactly what I had since it seems to me I recovered too soon for it to be the flu...anyway, I dont care now. I thought my weekend was gonna suck but it actually turned out to be pretty ok. on Saturday I wentr to my cousin's babyshower and saw the whole fam there (that's always fun). the big news broke out and everyone was shocked for like 2 mins but got over it pretty soon. maybe it had something to do with the fact that they were all drinking. to be completely honest, I'm happy...i cant wait to see it and how it's gonna look. I also feel a little scared for him since he's such a baby himself.

sunday I went out somewhere else and had a lot of fun, at least in my definition of fun....It was wierd though cause I usually despise that type of crowd but it must be the rapid cycling at work again that didnt let me care. after that there was other kind of fun that was comfortable and creepy at the same time. I had the itch to just walk but held it and stuck around. the cold was liberating and the sun was way too fuckin bright. maybe it's just i'm never outside at that time so i'm not used to that type of brightness. I dont know there was something bizarre about the day. I was confused about it being monday or tuesday and my MJ called to confuse the shit out of me leaving a message about our appointment tomorrow wed the 22nd. so I run to the living room and ask MG "is it tuesday?" and she's like "no it's monday" and i felt relieved. i thought i had missed a day again, but i didnt so all is well.

anyway that was my weekend for you.

I'm off this week, so i will be catching up on a lot of HW.

sick

i'm sick...effin flu finally got me....bored as hell. hate spending a whole day at home not being able to do shit. as restless as i usually am, this is torture for me....going back to bed now...ugh...just overdosed on theraflu, dayquil and a suspisious lookin pill my dad gave me.... if i dont post in two days call the morgue.

goodbye for now

mdl

100th DAY

YAY!
Today was the 100th day of school. I had a kickass party with my students. ok, we just stringed cherios to make necklaces and listned to kidsbop, but my kids had fun.

V-day

I'm officially depressed. I can anticipate this day is gonna make me sick. besides the fact that I have to go to work and school and I have to see a million people being happy and in love and all that, I also have to deal with something i've been puttin off. I am a little anxious to find out but at the same time I'm not sure how i would feel either way. I think it's funny how I never cared about v-day, and never really affected me either way. this year i've managed to feel like shit and have a million problems. well that's my life anyway. I was recently asked when was the last time i really enjoyed anything. I dont think i can remember ever really enjoying anything fully. I always have reality right there slapping me in the face. I can never say "shit, this is pretty cool" because as soon as i even think that some really fucked up part of my existence pops up saying"wtf do u think ur doing, u cant be happy?"

anyway i pledge to be as miserable as i can today and have the least human contact possible. I have to pretend to be cheery infront of my students, but at 3:00pm I will jet out and not speak to a single soul in order not to lash out unnecessarily.

bye for now

25 questions

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
holy shit! is that a pimple?

2. How much cash do you have on you?
$18.73 and a metrocard

3. What's a word that rhymes with TEST?
Stressed, best, fest, hest, jest, lest, nest, pest, quest, rest, vest, west, zest, blest, breast, chest, crest, dressed, pressed, possessed,

4. planet?
Pluto (or is it a planet?)

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list?
myself (I constantly lose my cellphone and call from my homephone to find it.

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
smooth criminal (but that phone was stolen, now i just have the regular cingular crap)

7. What shirt are you wearing?
a black turtleneck

8. What do you label yourself?
ENFP

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're recently wearing?
predictions (yes they’re from payless)

10. Bright or Dark Room?
as dark as possible unless I’m reading

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
why?...... What did you hear? And who told you?

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"what a teacher ....getting wasted on a wednesday night...tsk, tsk shame on you!"

13. Where is your nearest 7-11?
2.05 miles from here

14. What's a saying that you say a lot?
Great job! That was awesome boys and girls.

15.Who told you they loved you last?
My son

16. Last furry thing you touched?
my plush slippers

17. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
does vodka and diet coke count?

18. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none…but I just developed 37….

19. Favorite age you have been so far?

This age. 26 but in 6 months my favorite age will be 27

20. your worst enemy?
myself

21. What is your current desktop picture?
Adriana Lima in lingerie (it’s my brother’s computer)

22. What was the last thing you said to someone?
”go brush your teeth and go to bed” to my kid

23. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?
MONEY

24. Do you like someone?
yes but it’s a secret ….he he

25. The last song you listened to?
gravity – John Mayer

I hate....

Jennifer Lopez – you’re not really from the block stop fucking pretending.
Alanis and Shakira – for jumping in the blond bandwagon
Reese Whitherspoon – sorry I don’t have a reason for this one.
Carb eaters – I’m not carb envious just but I hate people that brag about the carbs they eat and how they don’t gain an inch
Most skinny poeple especially those who complain about being too skinny or that say they need to lose 5 pounds by next thursday
50 cent- getting shot or die trying or whatever
HelloKitty (I’m I the only one that think this is creepy)
Barbie ( fucking bitch)
Mr. Softee
People that speak in the secret code of American pop culture.
People that make fun of my accent
Mariah Carey – again, Do I really need a reason?
Some of my friends (not u NAO)
DR. Phil – whatever
Yankees and their fans – Not everyone that lives in the Bronx loves the fucking Yankees. Especially if you’ve lived around the stadium. And no it’s not ok to build another stadium across the street from the current one and take away one of the only decent things that neighborhood has : MULLALLY PARK
My fucking neighbor who sabotages my Christmas decorations.
My downstairs neighbor – do you really think I give a shit that your wife gets home from work in the middle of the night. I’m not gonna tip-toe all in the morning just because she’s sleeping. ( and by the way I can hear your fucking hammering every Saturday morning… what the fuck are building down there? I hope it’s a sound proof room to block out the noise from my apartment)
Racist Teachers – stop trying to jumpstart your career in the poor neighborhoods. The only reason you’re working in these schools is because Westchester County won’t hire you …I wonder why…maybe because you suck.
Dogs and their owners ( no I don’t think it’s cute when your dog wants to sniff me, yes I am afraid or your fucking little piece of shit dog, SO WHAT! I’m sure you’re afraid of things I’m not and you don’t see me trying to convince you to get one, I don’t care if your dog is your best friend or your kid or your boyfriend, I don’t wanna pet him, you don’t see me telling you to pet my kid) – yes I have issues with this last one.
People that wanna start random conversations on the train – take a closer look, do I really look like someone you wanna be friends with?.
The guy at the computer lab at my school. With the fucking fees this school charges I should be able to print way more than 50 pages.
People that try to give me parenting advice. Seriously, let me raise my own kid…. I will feel much better if I screw him up myself than with the advice your give me.
Old friends whom I no longer have anything in common with probably because we never did in the first place.
People that hate me because I went to school and they didn’t. – hey it’s not my fault you had a fucking chance.
People that hurt kids.
Badly designed magazines.
People who give up.
Temporarily broke people that pretend to that they know what it is to be poor.
People that have poverty epiphanies in their 20's - shit how can you not notice you're poor.
People that are coordinated enough to dance or simply walk with out tripping.
Gisela ( my fifth grade teacher) Fuck you wherever you are.
Jehova’s witnesses and hardcore religious people all together. – if god wanted me to come to him he could just make me. Anyway I’m not sure making donation to your church gets me any closer to god than simply saving that money and buying myself something really cool that would make me happy and in turn I would be in a good mood and spread joy everywhere instead of the normal raving and bitching. If I was spreading materialism-induced joy that would be contagious and the whole world would be happy. I think god would love that if he actually existed.
Reggaeton – maybe I’m old but I don’t fucking get it.
People that remember my name after meeting me only once –
People that are way too friendly – I’m really just suspicious of these last two.