So even though it’s not final yet, I feel a sense of closure. I have to admit it was a lot more bittersweet than I expected. After all he was my Unsent’s Matthew, Jonathan, Terrance, Marcus, and Lou all at once, … (If you’re reading this don’t think of this as a compliment) The truth is that as much as I would like to blame it on the circumstances, impulsivity, our age and all the other things I recite when I’m asked about it, we did have a strong bond, Just the wrong timing. Seeing things now from a different perspective, as I’m almost 10 years older and hopefully wiser, I wouldn’t change a single thing. Every single choice I’m made, has molded me into the person I am today… and I think I’m pretty cool sometimes….lol...
Yesterday I notarized a million forms, signed in one day more documents than I would in an entire year. I finally closed this chapter of my life without grudges and regrets, and it feels odd. I feel I should have some kind of rage fit, maybe I should be blaming someone, yet I’m not. But this will definitely change my status and make me somewhat more like a “regular” person.
